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i'm not here to win
i'm here to leave a legacy
tian tian kan dao ni, que can shen le ju li
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pain
exhaustion
chasing this insane dream
perfection
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i feel like i haven't trained for a month, and i've just started trng. how stupid is that? totally irritating the crap out of me. i think i'm wasting the assoc's money...
BLAHH. okay cannot be emo. been so emo lately. emo is bad.
grr, bike trng tmr morning. ahha bet i won't be able to keep up! this is so stupid. i am so stupid. perhaps i won't even be able to finish the race. quite probable you know...
gotta start controlling my weight. been eating like nobody's business. all my fault actually, while i was in china i kept on begging my parents to cook my fav foods when i get back. now there's lovely s'wiches salads and pasta. haha when i ate that s'wich on thurs i felt like i'd been deprived of food for a year or something. i wasn't quite hungry but my tastebuds were so deprived that i couldn't stop. mmmfffff.
all cos of jx i'm listening to the sad chinese ahdu song. wahh so sad. what am i doing listening to chinese songs. haha. anw, it's so queer that everyone speaks english now. i think my eng has deteriorated over the past few wks.
ahaha damn funny. i think the china girls stole our bedsheets and my raffles swim cap. oh, and clarissa's SPECIAL packet of sesame paste powder. ahhaha. they are so funny. they were asking us about our bedsheets when we were about to leave, and we told em that jiaolian bought it for us. then on the way back, jx receives a call.
jx: eh what did yall do with your bedsheets ah? the aunty is asking for your bedsheets.
me: HAHAHAHA. OMG. i think the china girls stole our bedsheets.
china people are amusing. hm since i'm on the topic of china, i shall list down things i miss about china.
the training atmosphere- being able to train as a team. not like in s'pore... bleagh.
the training- it's more fun and makes me feel like i'm burning more calories.
getting to spend more time with team mates- don't get much of that over here... learning more about people is always good. i should think.
the people- they're super friendly and funny.
no distractions!- no tv, no internet. better mugging environment. i was doing hw at high speed over there.
freedom to go out- could walk the streets of that funky town without much hassle. oooh! dou jiang place! i love the dou jiang over there.
no hunger pangs- not much anyway. good for losing weight!
hated other stuff. but i guess it's better to highlight the good stuff, or else the trip would seem more miserable. i think it was more mentally challenging than physically. first wk or so i was doing fine.. can whack every session no problem. then after that omg. when the muscles start to reach fatigue and the mind loses focus... wahhh. that's real tuff. sorry for pissing people off with my eating habits. hurhur. i think next time i'll buy veggie from the supermarket. haha. bring lettuce around with me. ahhahaha. what a funny thought.
okay. sigh. i think i have one last day to find myself. and if i don't.. i'm doomed. soul-searching. hah. time's running out! it always is..